THE WHISPERING VOICE WITHIN ME!

when the baby is out!

2011-07-30T09:31:00.002+08:00

i was in the hospital for 3 days!!! friday-sunday...and phoebe only came out on sunday..it was really pain and im still thinking whether to have a second one..kakakaka...

it was 4am..when i started the real real pain....so i called up hubby dear...and he came as soon as he can..i was so relieve when i saw him..holding my hand but because i was in pain...cant even tell him i was grateful he was by myside...

when i push my lil one to come out...hubby was so encouraging ...he keep holding my head and my back...and when lil gal came out...hubby kissed me in the forehead saying..."i love u" of coz i couldn't reply him..i was too exhaust ...but i was really happy...it was the sweetness thing to do...a kiss and its all worth it...

love u mr lim!!!!

hubby came back early

2011-07-11T09:04:00.002+08:00

weekends is over already and now its monday...where i need to go to klinik later on for check up..sigh...super sien la...
u know some ppl say my baby is a girl, some say boy...i seriously have no idea now...so confuse la...but anyhow will think of a boy name also..just in case..kakaka

yesterday, hubby came home early, it was a surprise..really like it....i was to happy when he told me that he was on his way back already..nice....so happy...we spend the whole day together hugging each other, kissing and even,....kakakak

but today we wake up early at 5.20am cause he needs to go kedah for work and his flught is at 7.10am..and will come back later at night at 9 plus...pity him....once he is back he still need to drive back to puchong...and i cant do anything but to support him from behind...sigh..

but anyway..love him so much...

xoxo
drey

its weekend

2011-07-08T20:37:00.002+08:00

finally its weekend, but unfortunately hubby will only be coming back this sunday...well, at least he come back to see me la...then on monday he is going to kedah....for a one day working trip...sigh...i have no idea about his job, whether it is a good thing or not...cause he seems to travel lot..

secondly, yesterday he told me that, this company have the possibility of being transfer here and there...if this is gonna happen, i have no idea how to survive without him...and only me and baby here...

i wish my small baby will come out faster as i wanna go back to work...i am bored to dead dy...

u know..being preggy, we get emotional...really..like when i get bored, i feel so sad, when i feel sad, i will cry out of sudden without stopping and dare not tell any1, and i cry, i feel more lonely...
sigh..wel, i guess what they are saying about preggy woman gets emo..i guess its true...

thats all for today...hopefully baby come out faster..

xoxo
drey

Hubby is back

2011-07-07T12:13:00.002+08:00

Finally my hubby is back from china for 6 long days....
my father in law went and fetch him at the airport...i misses him so much but he was unable to stay for long as he still need to work the next day and so he went back at 9 plus....it was a short loving hours and it worth a millions...

althou we can sleep together now, its ok cause i still received warm messages and calls in the morning and at night...i am grateful to that..at least we still contact each other...
next monday he need to go outstation again...hope my small baby will wait for her dad to come back only she come out..but i know she will because everytime when her dad sayang her..she will move so energetically...

sigh..there is so many thing need to be done...pity my hubby because he needs to work and renovate our new hse at the same time...i hope i can help him but i cant...help a lil bit only...feel like so useles...

thats all for today...
hopefully hubby will come back this weekend to teman me cause no one is here also...feel a bit..i mean a lot lonely!!!cause no one to hug /kiss and TALK to me...

xoxo
drey

bored!!!

2011-07-03T19:42:00.002+08:00

oh god..pls help me...i am so bored and i barely can stand it..what should i do??? i dont like being alone and i dont like being lonely...what should i do??
i am so bored! there is no one to talked to except my baby...but that is not enuf because i need more....i need my hubby to give me strength....a lot of it...

pls come back bb..faster come back...

2 more days

2011-07-03T15:20:00.003+08:00

today is sunday...another 2 more days and my hubby is back...but sadly he can t be with me for whole day as he need to work...and sometimes weekend he cant even come bac as he need to do renovation of our new hse...it is really sad to think a about it because i cant see my hubby...and i am not used to separate with him...but what can i do?? i feel so alone and lonely sometimes...
but i will talk to my baby who soon coming out in no time, thats all i can do, when i am bored..but for me that is not enuf..i wanna hug my hubby and kiss him...when i wake up early morning seeing him beside me is so nice...
hmmm...hopeflly baby will come out faster....

love..

baby coming out dy!!!

2011-07-01T19:53:00.001+08:00

another few weeks and im going to deliver dy...so bored here staying at mantin..no one to talked to..how can i stand??? i have no idea...one thing that i know i am bored to dead!!! halo halo halo???any1 there...so sien la..super sien...god damn it!!!!

baby

2011-03-15T13:54:00.001+08:00

im already 4 months pregnant....so nervous....this friday will have another check up...donno whether i can see its a baby girl or boy.....hahahahah...

but anyhow..i can the baby moving and kicking already.....yeah

xoxo

lost in no way...

2011-01-24T17:50:00.002+08:00

feel so sad...nothing i can do to help the person i care...i can only watch from far...
but there is nothing can be done...all must be independent...no one can help..

hmm..i wonder if they blame me? but we never wish it happen..hmmm...it makes it worst...become more sad..how?hmm..

tears is valueable.. but it cannot be stop from tearing...

xoxo

Not feeling well

2011-01-18T17:33:00.002+08:00

starting last saturday, i was not feeling well, fever for few days, keep on coughing until now, and vomiting become serious startin that day, donno whats the problem but doctor say its nothing.

its so hard, when u wan to vomit ..u feel sick..when u are vomiting..u feel sick again...and after vomiting..lagi worst...hmmm..

hopefully these days everything will go back normal..if not very san fu...hmmm..not only me but ppl around me also...sigh...

xoxo

here comes the weekend

2011-01-14T13:06:00.002+08:00

i really like when it come back friday...because i dont have to work on sat/sun...its a wonderful thing but hubby need to work on sat la...so sad...hopefully he don have to work...can teman me....

tomoro plan is sleep sleep sleep and eat eat eat and watch drama....yeah!!!!
such a lazy girl..kakakaka

aiyo.....

2011-01-13T15:20:00.002+08:00

feel so tired everytime.....there is so many things need to do in this 2011 rabbit year....and so many things happen..i really hope it can be a very good year to me.

seriously i donno what to expree la...but i feel so tired in everything....i wanna sleep saja...so so so so tired...can any1 understand my tired-ness??? i dont think so...
i seriously wanna be strong...but stomach always pain and somemore i paling cannot tahan stomach pain...so how to be strong la?? so sad la....

but one thing i can do is smile..and only smile will help me go thru this....ish

xoxox

1.1.11- the chosen date

2011-01-03T08:44:00.002+08:00

That day, it first 4pm at home and i saw my hubby and his fren alex...quai quai shu shu sms each other and somemore delete it and don wanna let me see le...damn it...so i just leave it la..
in my mind maybe today is he day????

then at night 7plus we went to our uncle hse to have BBQ....and i seriously tot that day is the choosen day le...but i cant find he ring ....so i tot maybe i was wrong la...

its almost new year d....hubby say wanna go sing k with alex them...i was like/?? im so tired d.....must ka/?? but ok la....just follo only...
on the way to the curve...we saw fireworks...cause damn jam...so we just see see from inside the car only....

then once we reach there...i saw one of hs fren holding camera...in my mind, why is he bringing camera???somemore so damn big le...so i just leave it....
hubby hilang awhile...donno go where...with his two frens...

suddenly.....it was a long song...althou i don understand.....but it was a long song la bu jacky cheung...he came in with a mic and flowers....and one of his fren holding a cardboard saying "BB will u marry me"....
ohhh,,,,,it was so touching ba....and he say will love me and ask me to marry him...of coz i say yes..kakakaka...and last i cried...cause so sweet ba...i keep on guessing and in the end its true...kakakakak....

the answer is damn yes....

xoxo

Im Getting Married

2010-12-30T10:54:00.002+08:00

a new life will come in a few months times.....there is so much thing to do...church ceremony....booking....and even marriage course...rings and lots....i never tot that marriage can be so damn fan....i mean its a good thing la...but then damn sad..cause money money money....where the heck can i find all those money? anyone can help...?i dont think so....i have to think think and think and in the end there is not conclusion....kesian my hubby....sigh....i understand....how iwish we can only register and dont have to go thru all those celebration...seriously..money is everything la....no money no talk....every1 is so fan..keep on asking..i mean i dont mind la...but so many things need to do i also cant even answer their question sometimes....kesian them also....

but i am really happy my jimuis is always here with me....im glad u are all my BFF and will always be...thanks for being there with me when i need u girls....muacks....

and yes to my coming hubby...love u and thanks for always become my kuli this time...kakakaka...bagus punya hubby....muacks....

xoxox...
drey

Blank

2010-12-16T11:32:00.002+08:00

my head is spinning...i wish to tell someone..
i am confuse..i wish someone can help me..
i donno what to do nor what to think...wish that someone is there for me..

what can i say? what can i do? so confuse and its so complicated...wish someone will support me for everything and hear my story...

hmm..i wish..

Pain La...

2010-12-13T16:31:00.002+08:00

stomach really pain....who can help me?? honestly i really cant stand stomachache...damn it...
yesterday when i went and see the doc....the doc say maybe its a gastric problem..Maybe? oh my...then she gave me the medicine and it cost me rm60 le...WTF....
when i took the med...stomach pain is not reducing but more pain la...arrghhhhh....keep on vomiting...and i vomit blood...a lil bit only la...and went i go for poo poo...i poo poo blood too...whats the problem la?? damn weak and damn pain now...who can lend me a shoulder?? how i wish that someone not playing maple and lend a big whole day shoulder to me.....hisk hisk...

Harry Potter

2010-11-26T10:53:00.003+08:00

went and watched harry Potter part 7 yesterday with my BB...
But eventually my Bb fall asleep in the cinema...OMG!!! i guess it was too cold yesterday in the cinema, and it felt so good to sleep..guess that's the reason..and also he's too tired..

When we watch Harry potter part 6, i slept in the cinema too..for 2 and a half hours...kakaka...
and now its his turn...luckily he din snooze...kaka
anyway..i still love him..muacks

xoxo..
drey

Weird Feeling

2010-11-23T19:43:00.002+08:00

hmm...how can i be so calm, relax or should i say less tense when im being over sensitive? or should i say this is what girls are..?

gosh, im very proud of some people where they are not over sensitive and relax all the way like nothing happen...

i guess..i have to learn from them...and i think i can..i can? can i? anyhow..yes i can!!!

i must be strong..tough... and open to all things...

so, must be really relax..less tense..and do not think much.

xoxo...drey

Genting!

2010-11-21T20:02:00.002+08:00

yesterday me and seng went to genting as mom is there...not only mom, her brothers, wife, my sister, bro and also my beautiful niece Kimmy!!!!! and this is the first time GOh family came to kl...hahaha...it was so fun to meet every1 there.

of coz we went to casino as wel...first day...OMG we kalah like rm300...but the next day..menang back d....yeah....thank god.. and i think i have a very good partner..cause everytime me and seng play the Wheel of fortune..we damn win...kakakakaka...good good...so happy! i din kalah...

mom will be here for 5 days...so need to come out money again....gosh!!

Purse Hilang!!!!

2010-11-14T11:57:00.003+08:00

Oh my, yesterday we were suppose to go to MOS club, at first everything ok..then suddenly i cant find my purse..shit...!

and i cant remember where the hell i put le...then went back all the way from sunway to the house and to my office..cause i cant find it,....suddenly when we are on my way to office...i found it d...it was the car all these while...damn!!!!

bf was so pissed off...but i manage to pujuk him la..hahhaha..kakaka...and we are ok d now...and i found my beautiful purse and also had a great morning with dim sum...hahahah

xoxo

Girls Day Out!!

2010-11-13T12:51:00.007+08:00

Elaine covering her Tummy!!!

Cuiyi still got time to post while jess keep on taking picture..budak sakai

Who wants to buy??

Acting Cute!!

Two Beautiful Fren of mine!!

The prettiest of all!!kakaka

nice food @ chillis

2010-11-13T12:51:00.001+08:00

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The trip is on!!

2010-11-13T12:42:00.002+08:00

OMG...i cant believe the trip is finally on...after 2 years...or maybe more...although connie cant make it but still the trip is really on!!!! damn...im so happy and i cant wait for it....althoug the trip is still a long way to go but nevertheless need to save a lot and need to buy a lot too!!!!

yeah!!!! trouble gals is going on a trip!!!!

xoxo..

best but less best nite

2010-11-02T09:56:00.002+08:00

The other me and my girls, cuiyi, elaine, jc..and sorry con ur not in...and of coz with my beloved seng and his cuz joe went to MOS...not a nice club but it was so so la...
damn bored and oh my gosh, u have to buy two bottles only u can get a table an its without chairs....
i was so pissed of with the promoter girls...because at first i tot we have chairs cum with tables...but no...and she say " if u are the regular u know it" duh...as if she expect that every1 is the regular...so stupid.

oh yeah...that day we were suppose to go bubba gump for dinner, but it was so damn pack and we have to switch...then theres this beautiful bimbo say to us: huh? ole ole bali eat rice and vege wo"....
every1 was shock because ya...its dinner, arent we suppose to makan that??

good luck to u laine..

xoxo

Pressureeee

2010-10-26T16:23:00.003+08:00

Omg!! i just cant stand it, am i too weak or wat??

i have so many upcoming events and i dont even have any budget.. wel, at first i thought i have like rm4600 budget for a year, yeah i know its so little but never do i know that im actually wrong and i actually dont even have any budget for any eventsssss....and that rm4600 is another thing!!!

oh my, pls help me!! my brain is gonna blow offff

saturday night was a blast night!!!!

2010-10-26T09:13:00.002+08:00

saturday night was a blast night!!!!! it was so fun to meet my troubles...i mis them so much...

went to 1u to meet up with elaine cause she got this job, wear she have to wear halloween costume and OMG she looks like a dead lolita...damn scary and damn ugly and plus shes so tall lagi look like one dead ppl...but im proud of her because she used to not liking this kind of stuff...so really proud of u laine...

so, after fetching elaine ..oh ya, the make up is so thick and its sop hard to remove..gosh!!
so anyhow, cont, after fetching her we went to chao young-had a nice shark fin soup!! Yummy....then head forward to fetch cuiyi and to Royal oak..(donno how to spell it) anyhow, we talked about so many things..about JC and about connie as well...and of coz about my stupid problemsssss..... and cuiyi stupid problems...we had fun and took lots of picsss..

then after that me and elaine went to COCO BANANA..oh my, i just dont like that place..so we switch to Alive...so much better...!!!

oh ya...girls..elaine taught me one thing" she love A guy and she also like B guy".. and why shes not with A guy?? it because ITS A FORBIDDEN LOVE!!!!!!! wakakakak...nice one laine! i like it

xoxo
muacks
drey

my baby is not around

2010-10-22T10:53:00.001+08:00

Omg, my baby is not with me for 5 days. he went to kuching for his 3 frens wedding...Gosh, thats alot and alot money to spend...anyway, i started missing you already...so come back soon and let me hug u tight!!!!

love ya!

Meeting Few Troublegalss..

2010-10-22T10:49:00.000+08:00

Im back..good news this saturday, im going to meet my gang, yi and elaine...sorry to connie and jc cause u both is too far from us...anyhow, i'l help u two to send regards...

so back to my story, this saturday gonna meet them at 1U and we'l be heading to the curve!!!!makan and jalan time...theres gonna be lots of fun...cant wait to see u girls..and theres more to talk and yeah i wanna complain!!!!!!

see u girls soon!! xoxo

Frus!!!

2010-10-15T17:22:00.002+08:00

sigh... there is so many upcoming events in November and December. but the problem is my assistant is leaving soon...like real soon..on the 20th October..and there's so many events but no one to help out..I've ask my boss to give me another assistant but he doesn't wan to give me because he told me that he wants me to learn..

i dono whether this is a good news or a bad news, i mean come on, of coz i can learn a one man show, but i definitely need assistant also..speechless, well, if he seriously doesn't wanna give me, t ain't nothing to say..and all i have to say is try Ur best drey!!!

Emo-ing

2010-10-09T11:53:00.002+08:00

feeling so emo lately...donno y, what am i thinking about? dono...
sigh.. what should i be thinking about? no idea..
so better not to think and keep emo-ing...

Nice Poem

2010-10-09T09:53:00.001+08:00

BETWEEN US
By May Queen

There is the melody
I can't play for you,
There is the song
I can't sing for you.

Always,
I want to be with you,
Touch, feel your heart.

Between us
There is the line
I can't cross.

haiya

2010-10-05T12:30:00.002+08:00

i feel so sad....i hope my frens are here with me...
yesterday was really embarrasing...reallly...
never kena embarrased so bad...

i wanna go and drink!!!!!!!

New JOb

2010-06-16T09:05:00.002+08:00

wel i got a new job d....i thought it would be easier but i was wrong cause it is still the same and guess wat, i cant believe that on my first day i have tons of work to do....act i am just the executive pr...but then in this company we do not have any manager so basically my position is exec cum manager.....so sien....
everyday i have briefing and meetingsssss....only for the HOD( head of department) so sien....
if i know they are giving me the manager level...i should have ask for more for the salary....wel i guess its my bad...
and now i need to create lots of events....sigh

im glad its all over

2010-05-26T20:52:00.002+08:00

wel here it is....im act glad that it all over with with my previous working place....
because wel, there are act nice to you in front of cause...but at the bac of u..they are so fucking shit...they talked bad abt u but in front of u they still act so friendly...OMG!!!! so hilarious...
wel anyhow, im glad i've move on to another place and althou i kinda miss that previous job..but in another way its good....
so wish me luck in my upcoming job...yeah!!!!!

something is not right about me...

2010-03-25T16:25:00.002+08:00

Oh my, something is really not right about me....jealousy is really serious...how can i prevent this things. i know jealously can really cause a relationship to wreck up...gosh how am i suppose to conquer it...i feel so jealous all the time...feel so scared all the time and i donno why...i mean i do trust him but then i am so affraid...i donno why...sometimes i dont dare to tell him because i scared he freak about out about my jealousy...but then i really cant help it...i try so hard not to think much and it come all the time...
feeling so sad and depressed....

wat a mistake/...

2009-12-09T11:51:00.002+08:00

hey girls...so sad la....i made a mistake today....we were suppose to go for shooting today at petrosains klcc but then i forgot to tell my colleague that theres no camera for today...my producer did tel me that theres no cam....but i forgot to jot down in the calendar, so my other colleague tot theres a cam for us....but now we dont have cam...and at 2pm later on...we need to go for shooting...sigh, make me really down...i feel so stupid and useless....

i got one and i lose one

2009-12-04T08:35:00.002+08:00

is that all about??? why is it like this?? i really dont get it. i mean i do get it but i dont wan this to happen....theres this one song i really like nowadays....no doubt- dont speak......
i think this song is really nice...

another thing i wan to tell is that, i got a housemate but feel like i dont have 1....go bac see no one, wake up but every1 is still asleep...sigh...this is not working out.....

yesterday work til 2.30am....sigh...editing....tiring but fun

Dont speak- no doubt
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-bUmDh9u934

something different....

2009-12-02T10:04:00.002+08:00

hey troublegals....
how are u girls lately??is every1 ok?
i just wanna share some of my feelings here...
i feel kinda strange and weird about my house...i'm not talking about ghost la...but people surround me...i donno why but feel strange...like i'm left all alone and they are far away from me....why?this feeling make me really sad ...dont like it...
this morning when i woke up...open my room door but see no one at home....sigh...everything seems to change slowly...what is goin on? am i the reason of all this thing??
how i wish u girls were here right by my side....how i wish those memory of us when we're still in diploma...those happy moments....
now what i can do is only concentrate on my works...dont think too much and try hard to be happy....i really dont like this feeling.....
can u all understand my feeling? do u girls think i think too much.....i'm getting more depressed nowadays....sigh....
yesterday i had dream...its about me and her....but in that dream something change...we are no longer frens....sigh....i guess less talking makes you dream huh???hmmmmmmmmm

anyway, i've shared mine here....i hope u girls are doin fine...love u all...take care

a lil stress

2009-11-25T20:57:00.002+08:00

today...i get lil stress cause i need to do a news script in Malay...and all this time i do it in english...so its kinda piss me off when i cant do it well...and feel kinda sad cause its kinda hard...but i know i can do it but then it takes time la....
but meantime my job is pretty good...sometimes i quarrel with my producer but then again everything go smooth again...

troublegals story.....

2009-11-19T08:40:00.002+08:00

update news for troublegals...

About Jc...
wel basically you gals know that Jc recently broke up with her bf....wel, from the start memang pun they dont suit each other but then they try to be together also la....but things get complicated each day and her bf sometimes control her too much and she dont like it...
so when things get realy....u know...so they din talk for a week....after that they've decided to talk and agreed to break up peacefully.....

About Connie...
wel, connie pun ada masalah tau gals...the story is like this....ceh, like i'm writing a story about u gals...kakakaka...
ok serious!!!! so the story is like this...con also got problem there...BB cant get a permit to continue staying in Kuching...cause basically when u wan to work in sabah and sarawak u need to permit...just like visa la...so now its hard to get a permit for BB and guess wat...BB ask con" lao po why dont we register"....so here register means kahwin la...but then connie dont wan la...and walaupun connie agree...she can only stay in sabah but still if BB follo her to kuching...he still need a permit....so con...overall here is no poin to register la...
2nd story of connie is.....she is very stress cause due to story 1 about the permit stuff....if let say he cant get a permit they might be coming bac to kl....and i think..audrey think....they cant survive here cause BB's attitude la...but dono la...
3rd story....connie is also stress about her work and family as wel...cause her family and relatives got problem...money prob....
so here is the story about connie...so gals do ur job and sms connie lee k...cause she is very stress and sometimes makes her sad also...

About Elaine...
wel, JC i dono wheter u know this....but elaine got a bf...but then she broke up d la...dono now couple back or not...the story why sh break up is because her bf and his family is too negative...i mean their mind...plus the bf attitude ada problem la....so when theybroke up tht period of time...elaine found out that wel, act she love fatt....that time she was at penang la...now bac in kl....Fatt keep on avoiding her..she also donno whats the problem...and she is confuse in her confusion once again....donno wheter she really love Fatt or not....

About Cuiyi
wel, basically Cuiyi Bf is a jackass....he is younger than us 2 years....so the story is like this....the bf evertime lie to cuiyi...because cuiyi sub a line to her bf u know...then she found out that her bf keep sms-ing this hp la..so she ask why keep sming her la...then the bf say ooooo just fren....so here we cant see that the bf is not good cause even if fren but wont sms from morning til night....plus this case happen twice....
then, everytime when he bac hometown he sure garang2 talk to cuiyi wan....donno y
then, theres this one time, he told yi that he wan to sleep early la...then suddenly at 2am ...he called yi but act accidenly called one la....then found out that he was in the club cause the music...wats so funny is...cuiyi call him but he din answer then at 4am he called cuiyi say he just woke up cause he got bitten by moiquito...kakakaka...lame...
and the terrible part is...he is a drugger....he take drugs in front of cuiyi....once only la...then he also admit when he was with cuiyi he also got take but less la...see la this guy...nasib baik yi broke up with himmm...drugger somemore....ish ish ish....benci...

Story About audrey
wel, basically now i'm with seng...my new BF...he is sze ling ex la...wel, i hope u guys support me in this....basically we just started also...and SL also knew about this cause i cant bare to lie to her...so i tel her the truth la...so like this la...

wel this is the end of the story of troublegals.....
anymore information to update me or inquiries ...can cal me k....

love u gals.....................
go go go troublegals....kakakakka...so lame...
anayway..love u
bye

Muzik2 on Friday

2009-11-17T08:43:00.002+08:00

today is the semi final....
theres this one group estrange..andy...gosh he is so cute...tal..and handsome...but then he din look at me pun....
but when he's goin on stage that time, this is how he ask me" hey i need your name".....then i say audrey la..and his name is andy....hes a malay chinese but then he doesnt look like malay...hes more of a eurasian feel....really cute....

then that sabah artist again ask for my number but then din give him la..kakakakaka....

oh yea...then something happen as wel, theres is one guest artist really really .....donno what to say...so ma fan...
last minute say wan make artist but then that time he was gonna go on stage in a short while more....then he drank the water at the back stage and chew it and put it out again...eeewwwww so disgusting...and use the tisu and throw at the side stage only....sight so terrible.........

on that day got problem also whereby this guest artist mic took the wrong one and somemore it is live show...then some ppl say we should learn from mistake la..cause basically i was in charge of all artist and solo artist to stage but not guest...so how la i know...
but i din kena scold la...someone else kena....hmmmmm so sad...but good learnin....

MUzik2 on thursday

2009-11-17T08:36:00.003+08:00

Last thursday...my proucer came in late to work...so my exec without asking her first ask me to help the muzik2 even...
wel, basically muzik2 is a singing competition compete between singers....like adam, nubhan, estrange and so on.....so last thursday was the sound check everything and on friday is the semi final...

so when i reach there..i reach there, at alam sentral seri pentas 2 at 11am...on first day nothing much la basically..my job scope is become a runner.
wel, basically what i do is that i find all the artist and ask them to stand by then lead them go on stage ...something like that la...
on that day, there is artist la from sabah also la..ask for my hp..but i dim give it to him la..cause i dont like it...then he say, wel, we both are from sabah wat...so why not,,....i mean seriously i dont mind to give but then i dont think he wants my hp because he wants to be fren...but i can feel something else...so anyway i din give it to him la....
but overall it was ok la that show....

work....

2009-11-12T08:22:00.002+08:00

wel, guess what...now i'm working in tv3 primworks as a broadcast journalist...all this while i know that this is what i want...and now i get what i want...really happy...i really do...
on my first day....never ever in my life...from 1U to puchong...jam for 3 hours..gosh...somemore its raining that day...seriously shit tau....
then come the second day of work....so happy cause i did an interview....
then on my forth day of job i learn how to control prompter and vtr....tape rolling and everything la...wel i am so happy cause this is what i want....!!!!!!!!!!!hope u all can support me...yeah!!!!ultraman is the best! which is me la

has the time come???

2009-11-12T08:13:00.002+08:00

for the past blog...where i talk about my feeling...well, guess what i still dont get it and the feeling is still inside me...yesterday i called my best fren connie to discuss about this case...this diff case....but still i dont understand...she say she understand it...but dono how to explaine to me...wel, anyhow..i guess i just need more time to solve this case..

here, just wanna say out something...i kinda feel bad and sad...because sometimes i still do think about harry...but when seng ask about this thing...i din lie to him...but told him the truth that i stil think about harry sometimes...sometimes, i got this big..huge feeling inside me telling me that i should release everything...includinh how to love someone with ur heart...forget someone from the past, or even learn how to say sorry....but the ego inside me beat that feeling...so i always stay with the ego since ego is the winner la..but now that feeling still continue to persuade me...its not that i dont wanna accept it...its just that i tried but its kinda hard...sometimes i still put hope...but then i say to myself, why the hell should u put hope when i know that nothing gonna change...wel, guess i'm just being silly...
and i think maybe now its the right time to accept that feeling of mine.....

never felt this way...

2009-11-10T20:44:00.002+08:00

today just as i open my house door...but see no one in the hse....i feel so down...its been sometimes since i felt this way....its like i felt that i'm all alone...no one here by my side...wel, donno how to express the feeling but its kinda sad...loney...something like that ....something that i cant explain nor understand...as if like i loose all my fren....like i have no fren at all...like this house is a stranger hse....hmmmmm.....i feel so sad that i have this feeling...but i really dont understand...what is happening??how come i feel this way??why???i really dont get it....feel so confuse and lost.....

fat d....

2009-10-29T08:52:00.001+08:00

omg....cant believe from 43 i can go up to 45kg.....after my melaka trip with my hsemate....gosh...feel so sad now...even my arm is a lil bigger now....ishhhhhhhhhhh.....bencinya..i wan slim again...dun wan got spare tyre....!!!!!!!!!

sunday....

2009-10-28T23:27:00.000+08:00

this sunday gonna start my new work ad..so nervous...donno wat they will ask me to do...but then even thou i'm nervous i feel tired as wel cause i only rest on sat..so sad...thought can rest on sunday tim....haih....and now i need more t-shirt...cause working with malays...so good if theres someone who will buy t-shirt for me!!!!

angry.....

2009-10-23T19:11:00.001+08:00

sigh...feel so angry and sad kena say like that....how how??no one can help also...better just keep quiet and stay away from all this stupid shit....really stupid shit

The End

2009-10-23T17:34:00.002+08:00

i feel so stress out...so tired...and sick of all this .....i wanna stop all this stupid shit.....alll!!!!!!!i mean really really all...sick...fed up and tired of this thing......
lastly i cant accept it....
sorry1!!!

sometimes

2009-10-23T09:23:00.003+08:00

sometimes i really do miss u...its just that i dont show it out....
sometimes i'm really tired...but i cant let it out as well
sometimes i need you but i know i cant find you....
sometimes you just dont understand me....
and that sometimes make me angry....
sometimes i told you a "no" but still you wan to do it....
and that makes me sad....
sometimes i just wanna hug you but i cant ....and your not here...

what i think guy should do to impress a girl's heart

2009-10-20T08:53:00.004+08:00

1- buy breakfast for a girl no matter she's sick or not and put it outside her hse and cal her to get it....
2- Buy a dress and send it to her...no matter to her hse or to her office and ask her to wear it for dinner tonight...
3- send flowers to her
4- everday send a romantic morning message
5- when out together, be a gentleman and come out all the money.
6- ask to fetch her no matter she need your help or not...

next to be continue again...let me think

Happy

2009-10-15T19:12:00.002+08:00

yesterday i receive a call....and finally i get a permanent job...am so happpy...but then its under contract basis...i'l start in nov....

work in TV3 as Broadcast Journalist.....yeah!!!!!

hopefully i will be happy when i start working.....i mean i must make myself happy cause this is what i want....to work in the TV station...and at last i got it....

thanks hsemate....giving me all the support!!! o ya...and also my frens and family...kakakaka

Tired

2009-10-15T19:04:00.002+08:00

this few days i feel so tired...mentally tired...i just want all this to end....i just want every1 to be happy thats all...can any1 understand me??sigh...i wan all of this end right here...i need a rest..i dont wanna think anymore...no forcing, no asking....but end

yesterday i read a novel, and this sentence really attract me...by Iyanla Vanzant....
" in all relationship, regardless of their nature, there comes the moment when you understand that there are some things you will never understand. when you are standing in that moment, just right with it" i really like this sentence...it feels good....

interview again!!!

2009-10-14T16:35:00.005+08:00

tomoro i'm goin for an interview" account executive" nice name huh??hahahha....anyway...its something like PR butits not la...more on a client servicing, convincing and lots more....donno wheter i can get this job or not but then i hope they offer me high salary cause i kinda like this job....

so wish me luck ya!!!

busy life

2009-09-30T08:23:00.003+08:00

its been a while since i meet my ktar fren,,,hmmmm...kinda miss them. but i know each of us has our own life...some went to sarawak, some went to singapore...but others is still here in kl but althou they are here..we hardly meet each other also...guess every1 is busy....

funny stuff happen today!!!!

2009-09-29T08:49:00.002+08:00

today when i woke up...i saw my hsemate kiwen open the hsedoor...so i went over to see wat he was looking at...and guess wat i saw.???its a set of breakfast for my another hsemate Ayo....theres this one guy....our coursemate likes her then send her this breakfast...gosh!!!! i mean i only see this in drama...never thought it happen to my hsemate....wakakakakka.....but we all do think that its kinda romantic because "that guy" only put there and sms Ayo to take it without saying hi....wow...hahahahhaah.....i know its romantic but donno whether Ayo will accept him or not in the end????kakakakka

Shit food!

2007-12-13T01:35:00.000+08:00

today...i was so happy that my bf wanna bring me out due to my stress bout the exam i'm facing..so we went to times square..i was so happy!
then when we reached there, we decided to wtch the movie the golden compass..so we did. So, before we went and watch, we had our dinner at the shop called Kopitiam. i've always order pari when i'm there, but today i decided to take different food..so i choose to eat chicken chop, i was so excited of it. when the food came, it looks fishy, so i cut it, oh gosh, i hate chicken that did not cook well, so when i cut it, all the blood came out, and guess wat..,my plate is full of blood!!!! oh no... thats the worst food ever!!! there's blood and uncook well...eeeww....its so discusting..at that time, i really feel like vomiting on the spot..but i did not..hahha..anyway, it cost me rm11 and it feels like shit...!

tomoro i'm having my exam...

2007-12-12T22:53:00.000+08:00

oh no...tomoro i'm having my exam...till now where the clock is at 10.54pm, and me,oh my gosh...still playing this computer and my notes is just beside me where i'm so lazy to read!!!!
its not like i won't read la..just that i need to calm myself down..
wahahaha...anyway, i hate this subject, it multimedia design and application..its so boring and the teacher is so stupid...he is like a pervert or somethings..oh man..if u see the way he stare at u...u'll have this ...in ur mind..its like he's saying.."come on my dear..let me have u..".
wahahaha, its really like like that u know..i really can't exaplain it..but wait till u see him.oh man!